atunci cand un om incepe sa si gaseasca echilibrul, intotdeauna reapare cineva care sa i perturbe intreaga existenta a universului cosmic..?! Si de ce apare in momente cu deplina pace, liniste si resemnare sufleteasca.. tocmai cand incepi sa uiti si sa pasesti inainte..
Greu,dar nu imposibil.. e sa spui 'scuze, dar stop joc..!'
I'm not on my own this time.. It's not just me and my bitter sweet madness.. My 'churitina' sister is about to set her foot in this airport in about 2 hours..
Till then, it's just me, croissants, capuccino and London!
birou, popcorn si 'P.s. I love you'.. Apoi m am regasit in.. 'It's like I'm trying on a pair of shoes that I really wanna buy... it's just that they don't fit..' si.. raspunsul..
'Then why don't you try walking barefoot for a while?!'
intre indescifrabile ganduri.. Perplexitate intre o absenta subita si irevocabila catre trecut, un refuz incert pentru viitor ..si o negare involuntara a prezentului..
Sunt la fel de confuza si pierduta ca o femeie care se gandeste la un barbat, e iubita de altul, dar se vede cu altcineva.. O pura comparatie..
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De ce ar trebui sa elucidam framantari pe care nici macar nu le intelegem? Poate pentru ca adoram chinul dezlegarii nodurilor unei ate pe care noi insine am invalmasit o ?!
Oare iti poti ascunde gandurile printre cearceafuri..?! ..si daca m as rostogoli printre asternuturi, uitand limitele patului.. as putea oare sa inteleg un gram din cugetarile mele..?!
..si daca totusi m as minti singura ca sunt neclare, doar de dragul fricii de a le intelege..?!
Si perna ramane pe loc.. Nu se mira.. Ea stie ca ma intorc intotdeauna catre ea, o strang in brate, si i confesez.. Ramane nemiscata, ..mereu..
De multe ori zambeste si mi spune ca nu intelege oamenii..
Iar eu ii spun ca inteleg pernele.. si le iubesc adesea.. pentru ca le descopar rostul..
Sunt confidentele noastre, ne sustin visele.. ne poarta picaturile de tristete scurse de pe obrazi.. le marturisim gandurile.. ne mangaie rasul pueril.. sunt martorele extazului pur.. si ne surad in fiecare dimineata cand ne deschidem ochii..
Acum suntem impreuna.. meditam la gandurile mele..
Imi spune ca sunt un om tare ciudat.. Iar eu ii spun ca imi e indispensabila sufleteste..
..dupa zbuciumate luni si clipe, eternitati de insensibilitate.. astazi mi s-a scurs o picatura de emotie pe clavicula.. si apoi pe rozariul din jurul gatului invalmasit, derutat si extaziat... Li se spune 'fortunate accidents'..iar dupa ore de rataciri prin univers...m-am pierdut intr un zambet si o strangere in brate din care n as fi vrut sa cunosc ce inseamna sa pasesti pe terra.. Si tocmai cand ieri...
foarte fericit am avut.. Cel putin o seara de Ajun... Prieteni.. colinde.. bradut.. canapea si imbratisari.. cadouri si 'Secret Santa'.. salata de beouf.. amintiri si depanari.. filozofari si confesiuni.. cuvinte si sinceritate.. ZAMBETE!!! Mai multe nici nu mi as fi putut dori... Singura parte complicata si ciudata e ca inca imi sta gandul la cruciulita pe care o port la gat... Dar pana la urma.. viata e o mare de haos..o concluzie la care am ajuns astazi...
Mi am revenit! Crezusem ca mi am pierdut nebunia... E totusi aici! O simt, o traiesc, o gust, o respir si aud cum freamata!!! Crezusem ca a murit.. E vie..e cu mine.. Suntem in Budapesta! Doar noi doua..eu si ea! Ne intoarcem luni.. reimprietenite! Acum iubim clipele..
I was declared missing.. but I'm alive and somehow kickin'... I fell in love few times, each one lasting more or like 10minutes.. Or,at least that s what I'm trying to convince myself.. I'll be back with details of my sparkless, uninteresting life..in one week, after finishing working hard and pointless at the latest flower'power movie..
Lately I was complaining about the lack of excitement in my life, but something great happened:
I nearly got arrested today... :)))
Although I'd tried very hard many times, I was never lucky ...not even getting a warning or something..
Stormy stepping into my office, smiling all around and chattering ...suddenly I notice 2 civilian criminology officers in my bosses office.. 'There has been a robbery last night...would you be kind to answer few questions ?'
Since I stayed late Tuesday evening finishing up with my work, and also had the entrance key and of course my fingerprints were all over the crime scene ...having access to my bosses office and drawer...I supposedly became one of the main suspects.. :)))
When the male police officer took my fingerprints with smooth movements, then I realized he was incredibly attractive.. so during the process I couldn't help myself and made a little joke for my colleagues asking 'if there was going to be a Halloween strippers party with no costumes'...
I was going to ask him if he wanted to make a private interrogation, but then I thought I might overreact with my stupid jokes... For a second, it actually crossed my mind the image of one night behind bars, investigated and handcuffed by Prince Charming... :))))
But now that we have a secure alarm system and movement sensors...it might be impossible to see him again.
thing that a P.C. has done lately was a butterfly bumper sticker from a pink bubbly chewing gum...
Actually, there were two... a cute perplexed spider was involved also...
I tried to imprint it on my hand for half an 10 minutes, that laughed myself for 20 more.. and later realized that I should eat more pink bubbly gum ...
...although 'would you like to have dinner'.. seamed very charming
Except his looks and attitude that made me find him intriguing... (well he was exactly my type) ...'P. C.' was superficial, not so communicative and social, and besides his waaay to big confidence, his biggest flaw was his arrogance..
..but despite that, I really enjoyed the evening thanks to the rest of the companionship...
We're supposed to see each other tomorrow evening, but.. I think I'll let other P.C's amaze me..
I was about to bump into the first one next to my favorite pretzels shop at Unirea... I was disoriented and hungered while looking at the showcase and HE was wearing a police outfit, tall, green eyes, with a Wenthworth Miller glance...
He was the type of guy that made you want to rip your clothes off and jump in his arms... But I decided I'll pass bad boys for a while, especially since last week... I didn't got my driving licensee because one of his colleagues was probably a 'naive brunets fan'...
Yet still, we love men in uniforms... :D
The second P.C. was great...
He endured me talking for 2 hours without stopping, he watched me with a betrayed childish look while eating a slice of lemon from my glass,after putting sugar on it ...and was amazed how comfortable I was doing all those silly things...
We talked for 5 hours about life, men and women, cars, cities and places we loved, I told him about my secret dream island, Richard Clayderman, movies, and all the stupid little things that either one of us loved... As a reward for being myself I got 'shaorma' and 'ayran' ..on the edge of a sidewalk in a park...
After having a great night, now I remebered the most important thing... I forgot to tell him the complete name of my dream car...besides Dodge...it's Chalenger... They probably named it after me.. :))
is dark haired, black eyes.. with a fit body, a Greek name, has supernatural powers and is twice stubborn than me..
This afternoon I was on top of him.. sweaty and reckless.. For an hour he made me laugh, almost threw me to the ground, played me, almost made me cry and happily scream in the same time...
When I got off of him, I realized that I was exhausted...couldn't even move my feet.. After that, we spent some quality time on a meadow, just watching each other.
Nobody makes me feel as happy as he does.. he rushes adrenaline into my veins and then takes me to hell for 1 minute, and then brings Paradise to earth... The time we spend together is... fu**ing unbelievable !!
He is the perfect P.C. for me, except few small details that don't approve of.. like eating tons of carrots, sugar, and grass.
I never suggested that I would be even close to perfection, on the contrary... Soo.. I believe mostly of my blog entries are the prove of that..
I sincerely thank people that correct my wrongs, and appreciate the ones that contradict me, simply for the fact that they have an opinion that they motivate...
And I also want to show my gratitude towards my many devoted readers, a dazzling number that will soon reach 10 .. :))
P.C. made me laugh for 2 hours... He had a 'ragga style' bad moment... :)) but kept me awake every second of many good ones...
Even though not very charming glasses, the way this face twisted and turned and the senseless but yet smart things he always had to say.... made my imagination wander strangely...
yelled my name in the middle of Magheru street... and we realized that we were old virtual buddies.. During that 1 minute conversation he's medium sized hair got in his charming blue eyes.. before being pushed away with a playful smile..
After a few hours, another P. (very) C. I keep on bumping into everywhere lately... shivered me with a Robbie Williams song, held my hand tightly while I was tripping on him trying to waltz and gave me the P. Diddy look while making a karaoke duet..that 'totally eclipsed my brains'..
I'll write a little bit of every Prince Charming in my life... especially the things I love about men I already know, or meet for 10 seconds... or just imagine they exist :))
Today..he drove pretty chaotic because I was runnin' late for office... We barely talked...when he picket me up from home... but all those 15 minutes I could not stop staring at this his concentrated confusing way of driving...
I will try, because of the imaginary existence of my portuguese friends, to write my posts in an international language... Sooo from now on, I'll be writing in hindu.
Sacrificing my feet for a whole week, killing them on 10 cm heels to feel like a Cinderella, i had the luck to almost break my ankle right in the middle of the street...
Fortunately, I was picked up half the way on my landing gracefully on the ground... Looking up to my rescuer, I was amazed and delighted that Prince Charming has finally appeared.. Stupid and senseless as ever, I forgot what to do...
After 1 minute of smiling and blushing I eventually said '-Multumesc.' But he stared with a lost look. I tried again '-Thanks, danke, gracias, merci, obrigado' ... But he responded with something like - 'Uru duguru ja simith doc' ...:)))
I smiled, made a few steps...watched him walk away and triped again... This time I really broke my ankle...
Now..it's just me.. a bag full of ice.. and that stupid hindu smile..
cei care iti plac, te costa… foarte putini merita pastrati mai mult de un sezon… daca nu ii iei potriviti, s-ar putea sa te bata… cei comozi nu te atrag, iar cei care te atrag nu vor sa intre… oricat le-ai vorbi, nu devin mai maleabili… unul singur nu e de ajuns decat pentru cenusarese… unii merita lasati la usa… lumea te judeca in functie de ei… alte femei te invidiaza pentru ai tai, iar tu invidiezi alte femei pentru ai lor… cei sireti trebuie legati… toti trebuie calcati in picioare !!!